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A terminally ill man shows up unexpectedly at the door of his first love, Marilyn, asking her to spend the final months of his life together. After his diagnosis, he ghosted everyone in his current life. Their past as childhood lovers (13-16) was fraught with Trauma, racism, and societal disapproval. They haven’t spoken in 10 years. Now, the two embark on a journey across Europe to spend his last few months. With underlying issues of addiction, grief, racism, and the acceptance of death. Marilyn is a 26 year old black woman, grieving the death of her mentally ill mother and also recently suffering from an overdose. She has been sober for 2 months and is actively attending meetings. She has a successful modeling career in the city. She is brilliant, funny, passionate, and spontaneous. She also disappoints you. Her highs are high and her lows are lows with hints of BPD. She is also a hustler.  She is neither good nor bad.  Callaway is a bisexual white man of the same age. With h...

Marilyn?

Despite being off of social media, I am still consumed by the constant events circulating in my country.  I can't decide if I want A neighbor to Blue to have political aspects or not.  The election just happened, and I have an itch to write about it, but I am also tired of it. I am tired of reading about tragedy and injustice every second of every day, I am tired of hoping that those I love do not share the same views as these radical bigots. I am tired of wondering how many children next door are suffering due to these godforsaken Executive orders.  If I hear "executive order" again I will scream.  And at the same time, what if that is what the audience needs? It doesn't have to be on the nose.  How do I find a way to say what I want to say without saying it at all, but instead guide the reader to the idea?  What do I want say?  Protect all humans? Protect Children? There is only 1 enemy (The 1%)? We are stronger together? We don't have a purpose?...

It's quiet here

 Zachary is gone to work for the night and I am so insanely bored I think I'll keep writing! Something comforting I just thought about was the fact that even though I am in way over my head in writing this and I have no idea what it takes to write a book.... at least no one is reading this. Writing here feels quiet in a way, like the internet in 2012. Since eliminating my source of external validation (Social Media) the world has gotten quieter, my creativity is peaking, and what's coming from my brain feels a bit more promising.  Of course I am still trying to seek external validation about what I've written so far and have failed all attempts at finding a reader. (Friends are out of the question) Which is a good thing. What if I finally created something from start to finish and received no feedback, no likes, no comments, no dopamine? What if I created something for myself first? If I really want this piece to be as emotional and as raw as possible I think that is the on...

Inspirations

 My inspirations for this piece of work are as follows: Last of Us Bojack Horseman  Moonlight  South Park Attack on Titan (the foreshadowing obviously)  Room  Hilarious that none of these are actual books (Except Room started off as a book but I actually enjoyed the movie more) and this work will more than likely be a book. Of course I have a small dream of writing a movie, but I figured one thing at a time. I should continue to practice my writing before I strive for more ambitious goals. For now anyway.  All of these titles have something in common. Complex storytelling yes, but the emotion each piece conveys, South Park included. These titles are nothing short of incredible in my very humble opinion. This is what I want my story's strength to be. To beautifully describe both happy and ugly emotions, complex nuanced emotions that can only be understood if the reader has experienced it themselves. I want to bring the reader through an emotional journey li...

1 Year From Now

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There are important moments in my life that I know I want to incorporate into A Neighbor to Blue . Which ones? How specific should I get? How much should I change? I have no idea. I think I will figure it out as I go. Part of me thinks it'll be good idea to get out the intense scenes first and find a place for them later. There is no wrong way to write a story. If that's what I'm drawn towards why not try it? So without further ado, here is one of the scenes I plan to include: While I position the camera in front of me I can feel my heart start to race. Putting one's soul on display like this isn't an easy ask, and still I breath through the anxiety and press play.  You look down at the camera and refuse to make eye contact, "I guess I know that nothing is guaranteed, and I know that anything could happen between now, and here, and, I mean, fucking anything, um, but if I'm sure about something, if I was giving one thing that I could absolutely be sure abou...

Intro

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  I think it's important that I document the making of  A Neighbor to Blue . Not because someone might care, (Though I hope someone does), but because I just feel an unnerving need to. So why question it? I think it's important to understand that when the universe pulls you in one direction, you follow it. I'm tired of disobeying.  Since social media is no longer an option, what better way to display this than my own personal blog that no one may ever find? Makes perfect sense, actually.  Before I continue with A Neighbor to Blue , it's important to explain where that title came from.  My golden ring A Neighbor to Blue A friend to black  A home to me You finished raising me You showed me that there was something to love  That I was a dove You saw me  And you remembered every detail  I can't help but think of your color fading, as if I'm suffocating as I wait, praying that you'll never drift to grey  I can't help but think of the feeling ...